REFLECTING ON 2021:

What Disappointed Me in 2021?

Geez…

Me.

Myself.

I.

Why do I say that?

Well, it’s easy to say ‘oh, this situation disappointed me’ or ‘this person disappointed me’, and although that did happen, I have made it a mission to not hold on to grudges, so although disappointing things occurred from third parties, I have handed that over to God.

It’s a bit harder to hand-over being disappointed in myself though. I think it has to do with the fact that it’s a constant thing.

The main thing I’m disappointed in myself with is not doing what I said I was going to do this year.

I’m so good at getting things done for others, and I do have stages where I’m full throttle when it comes to my things and I think I’ve been doing quite well for the last two years.
This year though, I don’t know what happened that I had moments where I was checking things off my list, I even got back into reading and then it all fell apart. And it wasn’t just once, it was multiple times this year.
I used the excuse that I was busy, but in reality, I just chose not to get these things taken care of. I chose sleep over majority of the time, and although it’s good to get some rest, me sleeping in looks like waking up at 2pm or later. So yeah, I’m disappointed that I fell back to this lack of productivity.

It’s definitely something I will have to continue on being conscious about in 2022.