REFLECTING ON 2021:

WHAT HAS MY RELATIONSHIP WITH SOCIAL MEDIA BEEN LIKE THIS YEAR?

It’s been an on and off relationship.

Quite literally. I think I’ve fasted from social media about four times this year.

This last fast though, I honestly felt indifferent towards whether I was on IG or not. So much so, that my fast actually ended on December 10th, but I didn’t hop on the bandwagon again right away. I told myself that I would get back on IG when I left for DR, and that’s exactly what I did.

I can’t say why that is. Maybe I realized that social media is not really necessary in my life. Before, I felt like I was missing out on things when I was off social media. This time around though, I’m like ‘eh, I missed it, oh well. If I was supposed to know, I would’ve known even without social media. So if I don’t know, then I wasn’t meant to.’
It’s quite relieving, no one owes me anything and I don’t owe anyone anything either. Social media is not my boss and my world does not revolve around it.

Does it mean I’ll be posting less this time around? Probably not, but I definitely intend for my posts to be more vision oriented as in the last few months I had been more focused on aesthetic and how my IG looked. Not to say k wasn’t intentional about what I was positing, but some posts were simply fillers because I needed to keep my aesthetic, which actually got quite dark.

I talked to God about that, how my IG went from really bright to like dark. If you scroll through it you’d notice. At one point everything was white.

Though I’m still going to try to keep some type of aesthetic, it’s not going to dictate what I post.
And that’s where I’m at with social media.