Indiscriminate
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Choosing at random without careful selection.
I have been indiscriminate towards my time with God.
Although God is not constrained by our time for He is beyond time, He still desires to spend time with us and I have been withholding that from Him.
I have bluntly ignored the call to wake up early and spend time with the Lord - despite my alarm going off; I just keep hitting snooze.
I thank God for waking me up and then I'm on my way, not bothering to inquire what He desires from me today.
It didn’t use to be this way.
I met with the Lord morning and evening and for random moments in between. Nowadays, those moments seldomly happen and my evening time with the Lord takes place when I am ready for bed.
In other words, I've been giving Him my last, when He desires my first and my last and all the in-between.
I randomly choose when to spend time with the Lord without consideration.
I give Him my full attention in those moments, and He does meet me there; but that's His promise - when we look for Him wholeHeartedly, we will find Him, the Lord says in Jeremiah 29:12. and I was - I am - looking for Him with all my Heart, understanding that He is worthy of my time - yet, only giving Him a fraction of it.
Aren't we blessed that God is gracious to us? that He doesn't condemn us, but through His spirit, gently corrects us.
I thought I was doing well because I was spending time with the lord, knowing I could do more, but not really feeling convicted.
Until now.
Until the moment when I asked Jesus how have I been indiscriminate with Him - what have I been choosing at random without careful selection and He said “your time”. I chose the time I wanted to spend with God without bothering to ask Him what He thought about it.
Because on the nights when I'm up till 2:00 a.m. or 3:00 a.m., God is waiting for me. when those days, with my current schedule, it means I've gone more than 24 hours without sitting down with God.
And so I am challenging myself today to be more intentional and to sit down and ask Jesus when will He like me to spend time with Him. To make a morning, afternoon and evening appointment with God that no one can interrupt.
My name is Ahastery Lorenzo, and this is About a Girl.
